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Last 2017 my dad was advised to go under angioplasty due to some heart vein blockage. He’s been abusive to his body back then and so now reaping what he sows (this law is timeless). He’s guilty of it and as family we have to deal with it.
With an honest heart, I felt worried about him but at the same time irked me knowing that he’s liable for what happened. Financially, we cannot afford it. We have to find solution on where we can get the money. Physically we’re not all together, if you’ve been following my blog I’ve shared that my dad is not living with us, and for past years I’ve been working abroad. Emotionally, there are some attitude problems we all have not settled yet, and last spiritually, I myself have to rest my hope upon the Lord and trust that there is something good that will come out from this.
When my dad left the house or maybe when my mom asked him to leave (I really still don’t know who initiated) this pride in everyone’s heart been ruling since then. Somehow this situation at least made us communicate again as family.
My mama volunteered to apply the case of my dad to PCSO this is a principal government agency raising and providing funds for health programs, medical assistance and services, and charities. All I know about this agency is that it only favors to those who is in poverty level. What I mean is, income is regular as 3 members of our family are working, and so we’re not really sure if they will grant our request for financial assistance.
But then my mom pursues, and as expected, we’re not on priority so we have to wait. While waiting I can feel the fear of my dad, maybe thinking on what will lay ahead. He started asking me when will I have my vacation back in the Philippines, and I thought that since April is his birth month, maybe I can get my boss approval by that month.
Suddenly, my childish heart unleashed that made me desire to have family celebration and take a family picture. J I talk to God and ask, “is this the good thing that is about to come out from my dad’s situation?”
We all know that my dad is living with my younger step brother in Baguio, by some means; I thought maybe we can celebrate dadi’s birthday all together in Baguio. Just to share my siblings and I don’t have any issues seeing or talking to my step brother. But what worries me is that emotion within my mama’s heart. I’ve known my mama for my whole life, and she is the type that is strong outside but soft within. She will tell that she’s fine, and can make you believe that she doesn’t care, but deep inside she’s hurting.
Pride is an attitude problem that is really hard to put down, especially, when unresolved issues still exist and pain is still lingering. And by God’s grace, only by God’s grace alone, He hears our prayer and He wills to set free mama from profound pain and bondage of anger. It is only by God’s grace that below photo took place last April. ❤
Along with it is the provision of God by the approval we got from PCSO. Yes the Lord provided EVERYTHING! God prepared my dad physically for his procedure. As they say ‘When the time is right the Lord will make it happen’ I love to testify how God can graciously provide, heal and sustain anyone who seek and trust Him! My dad is out now from the hospital after his angioplasty procedure, praise God for His goodness, I would like to thank my BP Benny Abante, Pastor Allen, MBBE family, relatives who prayed earnestly for dadi. Truly it is not my family’s control or anyone’s presence that would make him feel okay; it’s ALL IN GOD’S HANDS! ❤ Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not. ~ Jeremiah 33:3 KJV
I really praise God for His goodness! I personally know that we as family are unworthy of His mercy and love, yet gracefully He bless us so much in most unexpected ways! ❤
I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I praise thee. ~ Psalms 22:22
Oh how great is thy goodness, which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee; [which] thou hast wrought for them that trust in thee before the sons of men! ~ Psalms 31:19